میرے پیارے اللّلہ تعالیٰ……

میں لفظ معجزے سے نا آشنا تو نہیں ہوں لیکن ہر بار میرا ذہن مجھ سے ایک ہی سوال کرتا ہے اللّلہ تعالیٰ کیا معجزے ہم گنھگاروں کیلئے بھی ہوتے ہیں؟ اور میں ناچاہتے ہوئے بھی اس سوال میں الجھ جاتی ہوں یا شاید میں اس سوال کے جواب سے ڈرتی ہوں لیکن آخر کب تک اللّلہ تعالیٰ؟ میں جانتی ہوں آپ رب کریم ہیں میں یے بھی جانتی ہوں آپ سے برھ کر کوئ مجھ سے محبت نہی کرتا لیکن پھر میرے گناہ مجھے خوف دلاتے ہیں,میرا نفس مجھے جنجھورتا ہے,ایسا محسوس ہوتا ہے جیسے شیطان مجھ پر ہنس رہا ہو, اور مجھے بتا رہا ہو کہ معجزے صرف صراطِ مستقیم پے چلنے والوں کیلئے ہوتے ہیں,معجزے گنھگاروں کیلئے نہیں ہوتے لیکن اللّلہ تعالیٰ میں نے تو یے بھی سنا ہے کہ آپ کی رحمت آپ کے غضب پے غالب ہے آپ اپنے بندوں سے ستّر ماؤں سے زیادہ محبت کرتے ہیں ہماری تنہائ میں نکلے ہوئے آنسو سے لیکر ہمارے زبردستی کے قہقہوں تک آپ ہمارے دل کے ہر حال سے واقف ہیں . الللہ تعالیٰ ہم گناہوں کو چاہتے ہوئے بھی نہیں چھور پاتے اور میرے نزدیک گناہوں کو چھور دینا کسی معجزے سے کم تو نہیں .لیکن میں نہیں جانتی کہ وہ آواز کس کی تھی کم سے کم نفس امارہ کی نہیں تھی جو مجھے بتارہی تھی یا شاید سوال کیا جارحا تھا کہ کبھی رات کی تنہائ میں الللہ سے اس کی محبت کا سوال کیا ہے, کبھی تحجد میں دنیا کو ایک کونے میں رکھ کر الللہ سے نور مانگا ہے؟نہیں نا بس یقین جانو وہ تمھارے گناہوں کو اپنی محبت سے چھپالے گا کیونکہ اللّلہ کی محبت لا فانی ہے جس کی کوئ انتہا نہیں اور وہ تمھارے تمام گناہوں کے باوجود معجزوں کے دروازے کھول دے گا, لا حاصل کو حاصل بنا دے گا, نا ممکن کو ممکن میں بدل دے گا وہ تو در حقیقت تمھارے انتظار میں ہے کہ کب تم اُس کی طرف رجوع کرو اور وہ اپنی محبت میں ڈھانپ لے تو جب تم خودکو تنہا پاؤ کو اورحقیقت کو بدلنا ناممکن لگے  تو رات کے آخری پہر اس رب کائنات کے سامنے سجدہ ریز ہوجانا

DEAR ALLAH TAA’LA

ALLAH TAA’LA
I always wonder why do we have to be broken apart in order to heal.
Throughout my life I questioned myself how it would be if we got everything in our life we ever wished for? An ideal life, never ending happines, flawless strategies,infact life full of joyful moments.
I always heard saying People that Life won’t remain same forever if you are happy today there will be days when you have to suffer but I never believed on this unless and until I came across a moment in my life where I have seen my prayers are not being answered,thats so strange and stressful to me but Allah tala only you know I kept asking from you again and again because I think i do complete tawakkul on you
in a way that it should be done so and so you will surely grant me what I am asking for without realizing what if there’s no good in that, what if I am asking you an evil which would destroy me later,and since I know that things have always go as per my plan this time they will go too but for the first time in my life I didn’t get what I want. I kept thinking about it as you know Allah taa’la I always told you I trust you but something suddenly clicks in my mind if it’s what trust meant to be it shouldn’t matter if my prayers are going to be answer or not……what if my prayers are going to answer in a different way perhaps in a most beautiful way and all I have to do is just a little bit more sabr(patience)because Allah taala you always know whats best for us but still my mind kept complaining to you,questioning you why it happened to me,why I didn’t get my desired thing, infact I became annoyed ALLAH TAA’LA IS IT WHAT TAWAKKUL IS? I think no,may be I have been missing a major concept of tawakkul or maybe because i have never been tested by you,things are getting mixed up in my mind. I was asking myself again and again don’t I have tawakkul on you Allah tala? if yes then why I am not happy with what you have choosen for me? With rambling thoughts and countless questions I started scrolling down my facebook And there i came across an ayah
Perhaps you dislike something which is good for you and like something which is bad for you. Allah knows and you do not know.QURAN2:216
Puzzle in my mind gradually settling down.Allah tala I am getting now that Tawakkul is not about being happy when you have what you want its about trusting you in times of difficulty.Tawakkul is what Hazrat MOOSA A.S did when he was standing infront of the river, tawakkul is what HAZRAT YOUSUF A.S did when they were thrown in a well, tawakkul is relying completely on you when you know there’s no way out like HAZRAT YOUNUS A.S did.
And here I got my answer why do we have to be broken apart in order to heal  because Allah tala now I know we lack tawakkul in our lives .The tawakkul which is not just saying that I have a complete trust on you but it’s accepting that nothing can be more better than what YOU has written for us,now i know why do we have to faced all such hardships in our lives,moments that broke us,scattered us into pieces may be Allah tala because you not only want us to learn that happy moments never lasted forever but how can we cherished the saddest moments of our life only by relying on you.
Thank you Allah tala for telling me you won’t leave me alone and everything will eventually make sense to me.
And rely upon Allah; and sufficient is Allah as Disposer of affairs.Qur’an-33:3.

WILL THE DOOR EVER OPEN?

Staring at the close door constantly without blinking my eye in search of light that is far from me. Darkness have never been so scary to me but this time it is.Maybe it’s not just the darkness that is suffocating me maybe it’s a despair that’s not letting me see the hope,maybe it’s the end of life,end of everything for me.I questioned myself again and again will I ever be able to see the open door?will my countless prayers ever be answered? will my tears ever pave a way for me? but still there’s just a silence.
Can anything be more scarier than this? I was choking,the pain was harsh,the reality was bitter but I kept staring at the door consoling myself, may be there will be an illumination in my life. I dragged myself and did ablution just to see if there’s anything for me in that miraculous book and to my astonishment I found, the words are loud and clear

قَالَ لَا تَخَافَآ اِنَّنِىۡ مَعَكُمَاۤ اَسۡمَعُ وَاَرٰى

(20:46) He said: “Have no fear. I am with you, hearing and seeing all.
And then i know there’s a door Allah has already opened for me and all i have to do is to search out for that door.
Indeed in evil there’s a good

اور پھر تم گمان کرتے ہو!

For those of you who can’t read urdu the translation is available.I would love to hear from your side 💞

اور پھر تم گمان کرتے ہو کہ اللّہ تمھارے دل سے نکلی ہؤی ہر آمین پے کُن کہدے گا.تم اُس سے شر مانگو گے اور وہ تمہھے اُس سے نواز دے گا.

کیا تمھہیں اس بات کا علم نہی کہ اُس کی صفتوں میں ایک صفت الودود بھی ہے “سب سے زیادہ محبت کرنے والا”

وہ تمہے بے یارومددگار کیسے چھوردے گا.وہ اپنے بندوں کو تنہا نہیں چھورا کرتا. وہ تمھاری چاہتوں کو تم سے زیادہ جانتا ہے.

بس تم اُس سے کیوں اور کیا کا سوال کرنا چھوردو اور اُس کے فیصلوں پے راضی ہو جاؤ.وہ عنقریب تم کو اتنا نواز دے گا کہ تم خوش ہو جاؤ گے

And then you think that Allah will say KUN to every AMEEN that comes out of your heart. You will ask evil from Him and He will bless you with it.
Don’t you know that one of His attributes is that He is “most loving”?
How can he Leave you helpless? He never left his servants alone. He knows your desires better than you.
Just stop asking him why and what and agree to his decisions. He will soon give you so much favor that you will be satisfied and contented.

WHERE WHISPERS OF THE HEART NEVER GO IN VAIN

SHOULD I TELL YOU THE MOMENT WHERE EVERY SINGLE CRY TRAVELS TO THE SKY,WHERE THE BROKEN HEARTS MEND IN A MIRACULOUS WAY.THE MOMENT WHERE SHATTERED PIECES FUSE FOREVER,WHERE THE DOORS ONCE OPEN NEVER CLOSE.THE INSTANT WHERE WORDS ARE BEING REPLACED BY THE SILENCE OF NIGHT,WHERE EMOTIONS AS DEEP AS NIGHT REVEAL WITHOUT UTTERING A SINGLE WORD,WHERE TEARS SPEAK TO ALMIGHTY ALONE,WHERE SECRETS NO LONGER KEPT HIDDEN

ITS THE INSTANT WHERE YOU BURST OUT INTO TEARS AND HE COMFORTS YOU WITH HIS WORDS,YOU POUR OUT YOUR PAIN AND HE TURN YOUR SCREAM INTO JOY,HE LISTENS TO YOU LIKE NO ONE ELSE DID,SO WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU?

IN THE MIDST OF NIGHT TURN TOWARDS HIM,POUR OUT YOUR HEART IN FRONT OF AL WADOOD(THE MOST LOVING) AS THE MOMENT IS HERE,WHERE WHISPERS OF THE HEART NEVER GO IN VAIN. HE IS HERE,NEAR TO YOUR JUGULAR VEIN,LISTENING TO YOUR CRIES AND WIPING YOUR TEARS.

THE ROAD IS CLEAR TO YOU HE’S WAITING TO MEND YOUR SHATTERED SOUL.RUN!!!RUN TOWARDS HIM AND ENTER INTO HIS DOORS OF MERCY AND LOVE.

I LOST MYSELF AGAIN!

MY LORD,I CAME BACK TO YOU WITH THE BROKEN HEART,EYES FULL OF TEARS,TIRING SOUL,STRESSFULL THOUGHTS, I AM LOST OF WORDS BUT IN THE MIDST OF NIGHT,WITH UTMOST SILENCE IN MY HEART,I ASK YOU YOUR DIVINE LOVE YA AL-WADOOD

I AM HOPELESS AND HAS SCATTERED MYSELF INTO PIECES, LIKE THE STARS IN THE SKY.I HAVE DONE WRONG TO MYSELF.BUT ISN’T YOU LOVE ME THE MOST.

WHEN I FALL YOU’RE THE ONE WHO MAKE ME ABLE TO STAND AGAIN.YOUR LOVE IS WHAT MY SOUL DESIRES,YOUR NOOR IS WHAT MY HEART SEEKS.BUT ONCE AGAIN I FAIL,I FAIL TO OBEY YOU MY LORD AND I FOUND MYSELF STRAY.

MY LORD I FEEL LIKE I AM LOST, WHEN I LOOKED AROUND ALL I FOUND IS THE TIRING SOUL THAT IN SEARCH OF PEACE HAS SCATTERED HERSELF.MAY BE IN THE CHAOS OF THIS WORLD I HAVE GONE SO FAR THAT I FORGET THE PLACE WHERE I BELONG.

PARDON THIS POOR SOUL.

I AM SINKING DOWN AND SUFFOCATING OH RAHEEM!SINK ME IN THE OCEAN OF YOUR LOVE AND MERCY.OH RABBIL ALAMEEN,I AM WAITING FOR YOUR UTMOST MERCY AND YOUR UTMOST LOVE

SINCERELY,

A SOUL TIRED OF SINNING !

AND YET YOU ASK,WHERE THE PEACE EXIST!

BY POURING RUTHLESS,MERCILESS,PITILESS WORDS

IN SOMEONE’S LIFE

YOU THROW AN ARROW FULL OF WOUND

YOU TURN THE BOND INTO A FRAGILE ROPE

AND LET THE LIFE TURN INTO ASHES

AND AS YOU CAME THIS FAR

YOU STILL ASK YOURSELF, WHERE THE PEACE EXIST?

AND IN SEARCH OF PEACE YOU STAND AGAIN

TO FIGHT WITH THE DEMON OF YOURS

SO TO MAKE IT WORST

AND TO MAKE YOUR EGO SATISFY

YOU MOCK AT THEM AND STAB BEHIND

WITH ENVIOUS THOUGHTS IN YOUR MIND

YOU MOULD THEIR SOUL INTO BROKEN ONE

AND ONCE AGAIN

YOU PUT YOUR EFFORTS TO STAND AGAIN

TO KILL THAT AWFUL VOICE

THAT LIES WITHIN YOUR HEART

AND AS TO LIVE IN SOLACE

YOU LET THE PEOPLE LIVE IN DISTRESS

BUT AT THE END OF DAY

ALL YOU ASK YOURSELF IS

WHERE THE PEACE EXIST………..

DEAR BELOVED FATHER!

DEAR FATHER, TODAY AS I DECIDED TO POUR OUT MY FEELINGS I FOUND THAT I AM TRULY LOST OF WORDS.

 I WONDER, HOW MANY TIMES YOU DECIDED TO GIVE UP BUT JUST TO GIVE ME THE FEELING OF HAPPINESS AND JOY YOU STAY FIRM ALL THE TIME WITH SMILE ON YOUR FACE AND HANDS-ON MY SHOULDER.

I WONDER IF I COULD EVER BE ABLE TO PAY YOU BACK FOR ALL THE SACRIFICES YOU HAD GONE THROUGH JUST FOR ME……..I KNOW I CAN’T BUT NEVERTHELESS HERE’S A LITTLE NOTE TO YOU FROM ALL MY HEART AND SOUL.

THANKS A MILLION FOR GIVING ME THE WINGS TO FLY, FOR ALWAYS BEING THE BEST OF SUPPORTER, FOR STRUGGLING DAY AND NIGHT JUST TO GIVE ME THE GLIMPSE OF SMILE, FOR NOT LETTING ME GO WITH THE FLOW BUT HELP ME IN STANDING OUT FROM THE CROWD, FOR PROTECTING ME AGAINST ALL THE DANGERS, FOR STRIVING RELENTLESSLY TO GIVE ME THE BEST, FOR WIPING OFF MY TEARS, FOR INSPIRING ME TO BE A GREAT HUMAN AND LASTLY FOR BELIEVING ON ME.

I HOPE YOU ALL ARE DOING WELL AND GOOD. LOTS OF PRAYERS AND WISHES FOR YOU. STAY HAPPY AND STAY BLESSED AND DON’T FORGET TO SAY A THANKS TO YOUR LOVED ONE.

OH THE LISTENER OF THE HEART!

OH ALLAH! WORDS CAN’T BE ADEQUATE WHEN IT COMES TO PRAISE YOU MY LORD

OH ALLAH!WORDS CAN’T BE SUFFICIENT WHEN ITS TIME TO POUR OUT THE HEART

THE HEART ACHES, THE BODY TREMBLE WITH FEARS, THE SOUL SEEKS TRANQUILITY, THE MIND QUEST FOR PEACE AND THEN…………….

THE HEART CALMS, THE BODY RELAXES, THE SOUL FINDS ITS WAY, THE MIND ACQUIRE A PEACE, THE TEARS OF HAPPINESS SHED OFF AND EMOTION OF LOVE BEING FIND WITHIN AN AYAH

وَقَالَ رَبُّكُمُ ٱدْعُونِىٓ أَسْتَجِبْ لَكُمْ

“And your Lord says: Call upon Me, I will answer you”

SPECIAL LETTER TO YOU MY FRIEND……

ISN’T SO LONG WE HAVEN’T SIT TOGETHER AND TALK LIKE AN OLD FRIEND.YOU MIGHT BE WONDERING WHY AM I WAITING FOR YOU ALTHOUGH YOU DON’T MISS ME THE WAY I DO.BECAUSE MY DEAR I LOVE TO SEE YOU HAPPY AND BUOYANT.

DEAR WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN FOR SO LONG?YOU KNOW I HAVE SOMETHING SPECIAL TO TELL YOU……YES ITS A SECRET WHICH I WANT TO DISCLOSE UPON YOU BUT I THINK YOU ARE ENGAGED IN SOME WORLDLY ACTIVITIES BUT LET ME TELL YOU MY DEAR FRIEND YOU ARE IN SEARCH OF HAPPINESS,SOLACE AND PEACE…….SURPRISED HOW DO I KNOW ABOUT YOU? DEAR YOU FORGET ME BUT I HAVEN’T.

DEAR YOU ALWAYS ASK PEOPLE WHATS THEIR BIGGEST WISH IS?SHALL I TELL YOU MINE?I WANT YOU TO SPENT TIME WITH ME.YES I AM ASKING FOR YOUR TIME BUT TRULY NOT FOR MY OWN-SELF BUT FOR YOUR-SELF.

OH THE BELOVED ONE! I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR YOU FOR SO LONG,I AM WAITING FOR YOU,AND I WILL WAIT FOR YOU TILL YOUR LAST BREATH.

I WISH AND I HOPE TO SEE YOU SOON.

SINCERELY YOURS

AL-QURAN

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